Angel Vo

my dead uncle's dog is like 15 years old & we're all pretty surprised she's still alive & doing well.. LOL it's july, so it's around the time of her birthday, so happy birthday dog.

Haku & Nick Wilde

i ordered these cute keychains with cute packaging from http://yosb.storenvy.com/

My BTS Shrine (as of 20160716) Official Merch List~

*nothing is for sale, just saying.. lol here’s a list just to keep track of the bts merch i have. also if you’re wondering where to get items, idk good luck LOL

Korean Albums:

• 2 cool 5 skool
• O! RuL8,2?
• Skool Luv Affair (signed)
• Skool Luv Affair Special Edition
• Dark & Wild (signed)
• 화양연화 pt. 1 I Need U
• 화양연화 pt. 2 Run
• 화양연화 pt. 3 Young Forever

Japanese Albums:

• No More Dream - Type B (includes a dog tag)
• No More Dream - Regular Edition
• Boy In Luv - Regular Edition
• Danger - Regular Edition
• Wake up - Regular Edition
• For You - Regular Edition
• For You - 1st Anniversary Edition
• I Need U - Regular Edition
• I Need U - Christmas Edition
• Run - Regular Edition

Photobook:

• NOW 1: In Thailand
• BTS X CeCi (includes bracelet)
• BTS Summer Package 2014
• BTS Summer Package 2015
• NOW 2: In Europe & America
• NOW 3: In Chicago

Official Fanclub Membership:

• ARMY 2기
• ARMY 3기

Seasons Greetings:

• 2015
• 2016

Magazines:

• Takarajimasha / KBOYS x smart
• Pia / AJ x THE STAR ASIA to Japan wo Tsunagu Global Visual Vol.1
• Bromide Jungkook Front Cover

DVD:

• BTS 2014 Memories
• BTS LIVE 화양연화 ON STAGE
• BTS 2015 Memories

Muster 1기 Fanmeet:

• Jin Wappen
• Bandana

Muster 2기 Fanmeet: [ZIPCODE: 17520]:

• Key Ring - Jin
• Photo Album

[ZIPCODE:22920]:

• ARMY BADGE＆POST CARD SET

Hip Hop Monsters:

• Wappen (Ver.2)
• PVC Stickers
• 6cm Figure
• 16cm Figure
• Mirror Black
• Mirror White
• Paper Case
• 365 Diary
• Pop-Up Card
• Pad Note - M
  
• Pad Note - L
  
• Note - S
• Note - M
• Note - L
• USB 8g (All HHM goods are Jin unless started otherwise)
• 웹툰 Book
• Plush (Limited Edition Ver.1) (Taehyung)
• Plush (Ver.2) (Jin)

BTS Clothes:

• Official Basketball Jersey

BTS LIVE TRILOGY: EPISODE II. The Red Bullet Concert:

• Photo Card Set (all of Jin’s, a few of the other members)
• Mini Poster Set
• Clear File Set
• Zip-Up Hoodie
• Program Book

BTS LIVE TRILOGY: EPISODE I. BTS BEGINS:

• Program Book

BTS 화양연화 ON STAGE:

• iPhone 6+ Phone Case
• Program Book

BTS 화양연화 EPILOGUE:

• Program Book
• Jin Photocard (7/7)

Poster:

• O! RuL8,2?
• 화양연화 pt. 2 (all 7 + group)
• Wake Up
• For You 1st Anniversary
• BTS Summer Package 2015
• BTS Memories
• BTS LIVE 화양연화 ON STAGE

Photo Cards:

• Photo Album - Group Card Ticket
• O! RuL8,2? - Jin (Signed)
• O! RuL8,2? - Group
• 1st Muster Wappen - Jin
• Ceci - Jin
• Wake Up - Jin
• For You - J-Hope
• Danger - Jungkook
• Danger - Group Ver. A
• No More Dream JPN - Jimin
• Boy In Luv JPN - Taehyung
• Skool Luv Affair Special Edition - Taehyung
• Summer Package 2014 - Taehyung
• Danger JPN - Group
• 화양연화 pt. 1 I Need U - Jin
• 화양연화 pt. 1 I Need U - Jin
• 화양연화 pt. 1 I Need U - Group
• 화양연화 pt. 2 Run - Suga
• 화양연화 pt. 2 Run - J-Hope
• I Need U JPN - J-hope
• I Need U Christmas Ver. JPN - Rap Monster
• Run JPN - J-Hope
• BTS NOW 2 Europe & America - Jin (+Jin, V + Rapmon & Jin Bonus)
• BTS NOW 3 Chicago - Suga & J-Hope
• BTS LIVE 화양연화 ON STAGE - Jimin
• Hormone War Promo Fanmeet Event - Jin
• Hormone War Promo Fanmeet Event - Jungkook
• Bangtan SK Telecom - Jin School ID Card

Misc.

• Bangtan Bomb Lightstick

Adventure Day in LA

so my friend aerin hit me up after seeing my emo ass tweets on sunday to go hang out to get away & go have an adventure day. LA is around 45min away from me, so it's literally an adventure to head there. it was a nice day to wander around japantown & get away from OC for a bit. i really need to remind myself i have not only family but friends worth living for too. i'm really thankful for them, for trying their best to understand my situation & be there for me. i hate to be a burden really, but being told i'm not one, just reminds me everyone cares. so thank aerin for this day & the baby chicken keychain~♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

this is the best uni pasta i've had @ Marugame Monzo

20160713.

well, it seems like how i feel will always be invalid to everyone around me. even if i'm reminded by my doctors & others that my feelings are valid, the people who mean the most to me, my family, do not see my feelings as valid. nobody really gets, even if i decide i want to live on this life, i'll always internally feel depressed. depression just doesn't go away.. i don't know why they don't understand that. i'm also diagnosed with bipolar 2.. so obviously having these manic episodes is normal, but supposedly all these episodes i have is putting my family through hell, so i might as well keep it all inside & not talk about how i feel anymore, except to the therapist i have to see now.. yeah, that's what's going on now, i have to not only see a psychiatrist for my meds, but a therapist to talk about how i want to die all the time. to sum this up, i just want to get away from my own thoughts, everyone thinks i'm not admitting that i'm sad because of how my life is, but i do admit it, I FUCKING TELL EVERYONE HOW SHITTY I FUCKING FEEL EVERY FUCKING DAY BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE GOALS OR A PURPOSE TO LIVE, yet everyone thinks i deny this? i don't fucking deny it at ALL! -rolls my eyes so hard i have a headache- nobody fucking listens to anything i say because they all don't understand anything at all. nobody around me understands what it's like to live like this & when they think they do, they're just adding on to more reasons in my head to just end it all. i keep getting told if i die, i'll have to repeat this life, but probably a shittier one. I DISASSOCIATE SO MUCH THAT I DON'T SEE ME & MY LIFE AS ONE, I SEE IT AS 2 SEPARATE THINGS. me, is a shitty person; while my life is a good one. NOBODY UNDERSTANDS THAT AT ALL, I KEEP SAYING IT SINCE I WAS 16 & NOBODY STILL UNDERSTANDS THAT WHEN I SAY IT. I'M BIPOLAR & IT'S NOT SOMETHING TO BE TAKEN SO LIGHTLY YET LITERALLY I FEEL LIKE NOBODY FUCKING CARES ANYWAY, SO I'M BLOGGING IT HERE WHERE I CAN JUST TYPE OUT ALL THESE THOUGHTS. what's the point anymore really. i won't remember this life if i die. part of me wants to live & do stuff while the other part of me just wants to end this pain that part is feeling. why the fuck do i exist? i don't even believe in god at this point of my life anymore.. honestly is there even a god? if so, why won't you let me die.
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*this video describes my feelings put into words way better than i can put together without getting jumbled up & crying like me. after this video, i feel less alone w/ this feeling, pls watch!

My Last First Kiss: Sub Story: ~Takamune~ Everything Before Us

i always love to read these everything before us stories because it just takes you back to showing how long the guys have loved the mc.. like so much emotional feels knowing even in their younger years, mc is the main girl in all their lives ;___; ! taka being shy & such, it's like mc is the only girl he's comfortable around but of course ayato is his best friend & he knows those two have a even stronger bond.. it's like ughh so much feelings everywhere & knowing how all the other guys also inside care about mc too.. it's like IF JUST ONE OF THEM HAD SAID SOMETHING & BEEN MORE OPEN BACK THEN.. but really everything worked out for the best later on for each guy's route with the mc since in a sense they are all more mature now & open up in the end more once you've played their full main story routes, but yeah i just love reading these.. i've literally bought almost all the sub stories... just realized that. yung taka the sideline buddy of ayato ;__; ughh my feels..

My Last First Kiss: Summer Love Adventure Campaign: Takamune Kitami & Riku Morimachi

so MLFK started this Summer Love Adventure Campaign if you bought like literally all the stories & such, i usually never buy the guy's POV's thus not able to get like ayato's or mako's.. but strangely i've unlocked taka's without buying his POV & riku's i actually did buy as we all know from my post about his route & the completion picture i wanted haha. anyways nice surprise that i got ot unlock two of these cute summer stories~

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Takamune Kitami: super cute, he's so much more affectionate now, like literally kissing the mc whenever he wants type thing & they're just more couple-y feel! i love this side of him.

Riku Morimachi: riku ugh just like taka he does as he pleases & i like how close they get & it makes her heart beat so much.. he subtly teases & idk it gets you blushing like crazy.

Anime Expo 2016

as you all know i love playing voltage inc otome games... like no shit, i type up my reviews on the stories here on my blog, but yeah i was excited to go to anime expo this year mainly to get the merch! ah! $160 later.. & here's my now voltage inc merch LOL

the most important purchase item, this eisuke body pillow *0*

the bag they had prepared for all my stuff in.

they gave me 5 of these bags bc i bought so much haha

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overall, anime expo was fun! kicking it with old & new friends & just enjoying all the anime fun i got to see. also cosplaying is always fun, a lil awk for me every time someone asks for a picture, but yeah haha only went one day per usual, hopefully one day will go all 4 days & have things more planned out. till next year anime expo~!

*update, got to go on monday july 4th, bc my brother had a extra pass LOL bought lotta prints today & stickers! ran into & kicked it with homies today too (: