Hello my blog that i rarely update anymore honestly.. i feel like the internet isn't the same place it used to be back when this & my tumblr were my main internet addictions. everything crafted on the phone now is so manufactured now social media wise with how people "live" & such that we've really lost all the niche hobbies & individuality anymore. what have i been up to? i'm 31 years old now. if you've read my past then you know i was a very depressed child & i somehow have made it into adulthood as a depressed adult on anti depressants lol. nothing much else is new. life is still life-ing. honestly i feel like money would solve all of life's stress because debt be drowning lol. i just wanna help my family out. i'm still tired. i sleep so much. oh yeah i've lost a lot of weight, i was 256lbs & now i'm 173lbs lol anyways i'm hoping life turns around by the end of this year or else that 2027 will be a better year. i don't have much to look forward to rest of this year besides the BTS concert in september & maybe save up enough money to run off to Japan again where i can just turn my brain off & go breathe in the countryside again.
Monday, June 15, 2026
Tuesday, November 18, 2025
Kiss the Dawn Away: Tsubaki Iriyama
It's been awhile since I've made an otome review on my blogspot LOL I still play otome games but I just haven't been reviewing them like LADS & other random ones I play on my switch & I still to this day play SLBP LOL but anyways I "bought" my first story on Love 365 in awhile & it was their new series "Kiss the Dawn Away" because I thought it seemed interesting & the ML was my type HAHA anyways let's get started on this review.
- it's a love choice series right now? I'm still not sure how those work because I personally just liked to straight up buy the stories on love365 so I was like what do you mean I have to buy hearts to get the choice I wanted to choose?? LOL like what happen to me just clicking yes I wanna run to Eisuke for a happy ending & not the no I avoid him & get an ok ending?
- the whole sleeping with someone from work trope really reminded me of Irresistible Mistakes, except like they weren't really secretive about it 🤔 in this series like her homie *SPOILER* literally asked Tsubaki like DO YOU LIKE HER? DO YOU LOVE HER? At work & also her coworkers know?? Huh?
- There was foreshadowing of like the work drama which ngl half way I was like are they not gonna bring this up again but they squeezed everything in the end & that was interesting way to do that...
- I thought all the fwb parts were gonna be spicier? Maybe I'm so spoiled by how the spicy scenes have been in all the ikemen series & such that this felt very tamed?? In comparison LOL like it's there but not like as crazy as I thought it would've been I guess LOL
- TYPICAL OTOME GAME TROPE OF MISCOMMUNICATION like I get that's his & her personality types but like damn iono I thought maybe the issue would be something else maybe like I honestly feel like I could write fanfics stronger plots now a days than a repetitive plot (I don't want to delve in what I would write because please otome game companies hire me it's my dream to work at one not gonna lie I feel like if I said what plot etc I would do the plot idea would get stolen etc etc. ANYWAYS)
- CG art was nice like wow I remember when MC used to NOT HAVE EYES in voltage inc stories LOL what a time to be alive
- There was cute parts forsure I enjoyed & the flow of the game was interesting? Like I thought the angst was gonna be stronger but we just had a cat like dude & a gen Z girl forsure because some of the dialogue clearly shows me this was written recently with the words / slang they'd used like "locked in" when describing how focused she was in her work LOL
2025
Hello my blogspot, it's been quite awhile since I've updated.. I do have a lot of photos, ventures etc. from who knows when the last time I updated was but I guess most of it is now filmed for my YouTube or tiktok for the most part but also there's things I should still post pictures of on here like my photography from my travels but I've lost motivation honestly to consistently keep up with things like a blog, vlog or anything for that matter. I am now 30 years old, life is good but I'm still miserably depressed lol.. like I guess that never changes even throughout these years I'm honestly surprised I'm still here. I truly am just high functioning suicidal person. Think the word for it is passively suicidal but here I am. I'm surprised I've even made it to 30, quite a lot of things have happened for me, I was in a BTS documentary that premiered at big film festivals & even worldwide in theaters. I've attended lots of concerts & have experienced a lot honestly which I am truly thankful for still being alive to experience but it's like when the days are slow & quiet & my bank account is $0.23 I start to wonder like what am I still doing here? What's my purpose? Why do I feel so unproductive? Like I felt like at least few years I had things to do but now as we truly enter a big recession the worlds now pretty much in depression, like it's tiring & expensive to live. Just wish I could win the lottery & make sure my family & friends are all good & then I can truly rest in peace. Anyways, I don't wanna waste any of your time anymore on this yearly update of my blogspot I've been doing, so I wish you the best, have a nice day everyday & if you read this far thank you for keeping up with me~ see you next year probably ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Monday, December 11, 2023
2023
Last year i literally said i was going to make a big post to sum up the whole year but i didn't end up doing that and now it's the end of 2023 lol not like anyone really reads this blog of mine but i'll always feel like i should update it cause it is like my online diary. of course i still am severely depressed & on anxiety meds that's not new to this blog of course. i'm still trying my best of course to keep trucking through this life.. i don't know what i'm doing with my life still & maybe i never will ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i'm 28 years old in this moment & i hope next year 2024 my last year of my 20's at 29 i'll find the peace in my heart, soul & mind hopefully but probably not lol thank you for keeping up with me if you still randomly do on this blog. hope you're well. have a nice day everyday~
Tuesday, November 29, 2022
Hello~
i haven't been on here in awhile, probably because i haven't really touched my laptop in a year lol. if anyone does keep up with my public diary aka this blogspot, hello! i'm still alive! LOL but yeah i feel like i'll do one massive big post of 2022 soon~ it's been quite a year indeed.. life's a rollercoaster & we're still here on the ride. also thank you if you've been wondering or checking up on me here.
Sunday, December 12, 2021
☆(*⁰▿⁰*)ノ
- CNBLUE & FTISLAND “Stand Up” 2012 - Los Angeles
- SMTOWN 2012 - Anaheim
- KCON 2012 - Irvine
- Big Bang Alive Tour 2012 - Anaheim
- SBS Super Concert 2012 - Irvine
- Korea Times Music Festival 2013 Hollywood Bowl
- B.A.P Live On Earth 2013 - Los Angeles
- KCON 2013: Backstage Corporate VIP - Los Angeles
- 2AM NOCTURNE 2013 - Los Angeles
- U-KISS U.S TOUR 2014 - Los Angeles
- KBS LA Korea Festival 2014
- BTS SHOW & PROVE 2014
- KCON 2014: Backstage Corporate VIP - Los Angeles
- BTS HIGHLIGHT TOUR 2015: Autograph Session & Hi-Touch - SF
- 2016 Crush 크러쉬 On You Tour: Wonderlust - Los Angeles
- 20170324 Giriboy 기리보이 & Blacknut 블랙넛 - Los Angeles
- 20170402 BTS 방탄소년단 BANGTAN Wings - Anaheim
- 20171101 BeWhy 비와이: The Blind Star - Los Angeles
- 20171118 Just Music: We Effect - Los Angels
- 20171202 Illionaire Ambition: Dok2, The Quiett, Keem HyoEun, Hash Swan & Changmo: US Tour 2017
- 20180204 Astro 아스트로 Global Fan Meeting - Los Angeles
- 20180905/09 BTS 방탄소년단 Love Yourself - Los Angeles
- 20190126 AOMG Los Angeles Concert
- 20190504/05 BTS 방탄소년단 Speak Yourself - Los Angeles
- 20190626 Heize US/Canada Tour - Los Angeles
- 20190717 Twice ‘TWICELIGHTS’ in LA Concert
- 20191028 Hyolyn 효린 Busking @ Santa Monica Pier
- 20191201 Crucial Star 크루셜 스타 @ The Observatory
- 20211201/02 BTS 방탄소년단 Permission To Dance - Los Angeles
idols/khh rappers i’ve met/stood near by haha:
- SHINee’s Key & Onew @ My Local Mall SCP smtown ‘12 weekend
- G.NA @ KCON 2012 Fansign Ticket Pass
- SNSD, BEAST, CNBLUE, KARA & Sistar @ BCD Tofu House
- EXO, F(x), Henry Lau, 2AM, Dynamic Duo, G-Dragon & Teen Top @ kcon 2013 Backstage Corporate VIP Access
- BTS 방탄소년단 BANGTAN, SNSD, Jung Joon Young & Eric Nam @ kcon 2014 Backstage All Access VIP Pass
- BTS Autograph Session & Hi-Touch @ BTS Highlight Tour SF 2015
- Crush 크러쉬 - connection to the venue the concert was held at & was able to attend his LA show for free, watched him rehearse a bit, met him, took picture with him & sat with his production staff during show
- Giriboy 기리보이 & Blacknut 블랙넛 - connection to venue show was held at, backstage access, watched rehearsals, met them in their waiting room, selfies & autograph personalized to me, name written by giriboy~
- BeWhy 비와이 - connection to the venue the concert was held at & i was able to meet him backstage after his show
- Giriboy 기리보이, Cjamm 씨잼, Blacknut 블랙넛, Swings 스윙스, Bill Stax 빌스택스, Han Yohan 한요한, Goretexx 박성진 - connection to the venue the concert was held at, met them before the we effect concert backstage. Walked by me, Nochang 천재노창 & Osshun Gum 최하민.
- Astro 아스트로 M&G photo, Moonbin 문빈, Eunwoo 차은우, Rocky 라키, Sanha 산하, MJ & JinJin 진진
- Jay Park 박재범 @ Sprint X TIDAL Shop Event
- Loco, Simon D, Gray @ AOMG connection to the venue the concert was held at & i was able to meet them backstage after the show
- Hyolyn 효린 @ Santa Monica Pier after her busking
- Crucial Star 크루셜 스타 @ The Observatory after his performance
Auditioned: (6x) SM (1x) YG (1x) JYP (2x) Cube (1x) Pledis (1x) FNC (1x) Starship