Myers Briggs Test: ENFJ-T

so i took the myers briggs test finally, i feel super late on this hype, but i did it cause my friend told me to & i took it on this site & got ENFJ-T, after reading it i was like ah, sounds kinda like me haha fun to know i guess & it really tells what kind of person you are.

take a step inside my mind for a bit.

storm of dark clouds ☁

it's starting to be real painful to be alive again. last week i was disassociating pretty badly. nothing felt real at all, i truly felt like i was just watching "me" live throughout life without any sense of control over my choices, just by a routine or some sorts. today, it felt like was the last straw to break the camel's back. i was thinking maybe i should go figure out how to kill myself or go to hospital.. screamed so loud in my car while driving & crying that honestly i really thought i was ready to die today. obviously whatever attempt i made in dying today didn't work out as i am here typing this to you all to read. my meds don't really feel like they're working anymore (50mg trazodone & 10mg lexapro) i don't know what to do anymore. it's pretty sad & i feel regretful a bit every time i think about my family & friends & how this would effect them, but really i just don't want to feel this pain anymore, this unbearable pain that has no explanation why i just feel like a useless piece of shit. i don't know what to do anymore. tomorrow i might just wake up feeling okay again honestly, it's like so bothersome how my mood is so bipolar.. i just want to not be like this & wonder if one day i'll successfully end my life but make everyone in this life be confused for the rest of their lives or wonder how life would be like with me in it & the thought of that makes me really sad that it might happen. i just want to be happy..

489: Tobio Kageyama Nendoroid~

i have joined haikyuu!! hell & now i collect it's merch of my two faves Kuroo & Kageyama. also my grandma got me snacks so i thought you'd like to see a pic of my snacks & i also got macross shikishi art boards because macross is my #1 anime fave.

My Last First Kiss: Sub Story: The Jealous Boyfriend ~Hiroki~

THIS SUB STORY WAS SO CUTE!! like okay i thought the "rival" was gonna be a super asshole tryna holla at the mc, but really he just helped the mc to get hiro to show his feelings of jealousy cause the mc felt like hiro didn't really care or whatever, but ugh it was such a cute sub story. cool, calm & collected hiro finally cracks i love it.. cause he's usually like i said & seeing another side of him is like ah my feels!! this was so worth~ lol as i say when i literally have bought all of MFLK sub stories... fml haha i love this app so much, my favorite app from the voltage inc apps, this is number 1 for me.

My Forged Wedding: Akito Kakiuchi

Season 1: omg, SO what got me hooked into playing aki's story was the high school days & i've heard from other people that his story in the party app he was pretty messed up womanizer player.. but he wasn't at all in this!! HE ONLY LOVED THE MC, LITERALLY WANTED TO CRY. it felt like dreamy days in west tokyo / my first last kiss stuff, because the whole childhood friends trope.. i love it. they obviously had their ups & downs but in the end they were there for each other & the season ended with getting super close, jealous aki versus ren stuff & proposal~

Season 2: omg so season 2 was literally our two bedroom story... had to hide the fact that they're together because they work at the same place & mc being there to support aki while he doesn't want her to worry & them taking on taking care of his little cousin like their own child. then both mc & aki moving up in the work world & in the end aki opens his own shop & they don't got to worry about keeping it a secret that they're together anymore & of course the wedding! like honestly i'm just giving you snippets of the seasons right now, but omg i loved reading aki's route.. I LOVE CHILDHOOD FRIEND TROPE SO MUCH!! THEY'RE MEANT TO BE! seriously also love when the other guys are in the story too, interactions are cute.

Season 3: the honeymoon was literally like a movie for them, dramatic af helping out a german couple be together & aki rambling about the mc & their childhood friendship, like honestly it's so cute how much he cares about the mc, he can try to be cool sometimes, but in the end he's the one getting most embarrassed & it's so cute! UGH I JUST LOVED PLAYING THIS ROUTE SO MUCH & all the cg's give me life. my otp foreal in mfw.

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overall: DON'T ASSUME HE'S A WOMANIZER FROM WHAT YOU'VE READ ABOUT THE PARTY APP! THE STORYLINE IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT!! I LOVE AKITO! CUTE ROUTE~

My Last First Kiss: Sub Story: Under the Sakura ~1cm away from love~

so this sub story is like if it started mid story of season 1, so you're not in a relationship with any of officially yet, but you're like in sexual tension feels type thing.

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Ayato: omg.. literally so much feels when he took the mc to their middle school.. it's like throwing you back to their time there & i love that throwback feel.

Ichiya: he actually lowkey is a sweetie.

Makoto: UGH MAKO TOO MUCH FEELS MC SO SPECIAL 2 HIM

Takamune: the awkwardness from their season 1 is totally in this but it was cute~

Riku: he's so aloof, but how he says things so subtly it's like ugh, right in my heart.

Hiroki: this one was like ugh bc they're not official yet, so it's still like mc is unsure feeling you get from of course their S1 route.

Cafe Maji

first time here, it was a really cute place. decent price, decent food~