2025

 Hello my blogspot, it's been quite awhile since I've updated.. I do have a lot of photos, ventures etc. from who knows when the last time I updated was but I guess most of it is now filmed for my YouTube or tiktok for the most part but also there's things I should still post pictures of on here like my photography from my travels but I've lost motivation honestly to consistently keep up with things like a blog, vlog or anything for that matter. I am now 30 years old, life is good but I'm still miserably depressed lol.. like I guess that never changes even throughout these years I'm honestly surprised I'm still here. I truly am just high functioning suicidal person. Think the word for it is passively suicidal but here I am. I'm surprised I've even made it to 30, quite a lot of things have happened for me, I was in a BTS documentary that premiered at big film festivals & even worldwide in theaters. I've attended lots of concerts & have experienced a lot honestly which I am truly thankful for still being alive to experience but it's like when the days are slow & quiet & my bank account is $0.23 I start to wonder like what am I still doing here? What's my purpose? Why do I feel so unproductive? Like I felt like at least few years I had things to do but now as we truly enter a big recession the worlds now pretty much in depression, like it's tiring & expensive to live. Just wish I could win the lottery & make sure my family & friends are all good & then I can truly rest in peace. Anyways, I don't wanna waste any of your time anymore on this yearly update of my blogspot I've been doing, so I wish you the best, have a nice day everyday & if you read this far thank you for keeping up with me~ see you next year probably ¯\_(ツ)_/¯